I am feeling so freakin' nervous at the moment. Why? I am just going on my first solo job interview tomorrow. Yeah. Job. Interview. (That sounds really adult, don't you think?)
Anyway, I'm pretty nervous. And just to clarify things to be fair, this interview isn't for a real job, per se. (Per se...I love using per se :)) It's for an internship. I had a interviews before, of course, but this is different. When I had my previous interviews, it was with either my classmates or in school, (still with my friends), so this time...the flying solo thing is freaking me out a lot. And here's why:
1) I get lost pretty easily. Okay, not just pretty easily, but easily. Unless it's just to go straight, I can't follow directions for the life of me.
2) I'm pretty nervous around strangers. I get all these butterflies in my stomach and I just feel like retching the moment I'm put in a place full of strangers. It's like I could feel all eyes on me and that just makes me want to hide in a hole.
3) I can't talk properly because of the above reason. I just hope that me arriving 1 hour before my interview schedule would give me enough time to relax and get my bearings.
I can't believe that I'm going to do this. Well, it's not that I can't believe it, because I did imagine it. I think the better statement would be, I don't think I can do this.
It's not just first day jitters or something, I'm really nervous and scared too. I could mess everything up for me with just one slip of the tongue. Or what if I get there early but spend too much time hyperventilating in the restroom and miss my interview? What if I look so under dressed? What if I look over dressed?
Oh the woes of a twenteen year old hoping to get an internship to graduate...which in turn would get me a real job....
Wow, no pressure there.
So yeah, good luck to me tomorrow. Hopefully I can give a pretty good impression and pass my interview.
Here's to me trying to be a functional person.
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